Anxiety can lead to depression. Depression can zap our zeal for life. If you are a mom dealing with anxiety or depression, you might also find that you are a mom who deals with a significant amount of anger. You may bottle up that anger, or allow it to explode. Either way, the anger that festers and then vents itself is destructive in any home. WAIT WAIT WAIT! You don't know me. I am justified in my anger!
"Of course I am anxious. I have three kids doing all they can to destroy my house from the time they wake up until the time they go to bed!"
"Of course I am depressed! I never get out of this dadgum house, and being a single mom sucks the life out of me!"
"Of course I am angry! My kids have been whining at me and fighting with each other all morning long!"
The Bible, over and over again, warns against giving into the lies that you are justified in your anxiety and anger. For me, as a Christian, this is where my guilt set in. I knew better. I knew I shouldn't be anxious, angry, and spurting out my hopelessness onto anyone who came within five feet of me. And, yet, there I was. ANGRY! We have to be careful with our toxic thought life, don't we? One poor thought, leads to another, and then to another. Each incorrect thought must be held captive, because if it isn't it won't be long before BAM! WATCH OUT! MOMMA'S GONNA BLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! (kids shrink down hiding behind cushions while mom lets lose on the the closest toys that will be sure to break when it hits the floor) :) hahahaha...Just kidding...kinda.
What does anger look like for you?-Screaming
-Physical violence
-Rage
-Fury

Or maybe something less obvious like...
-Bitterness
-Grumpiness
-Frustration
-Self-pity
-Impatience
-Criticism
-Irritation
-Sarcasm
-Depression
-Cold Silence
What do you do if you are a mom who tends to rise in anger, and spew it out onto your children?You may have read my post about praying out loud right in front of your children. The second part to that is to find, and commit to memory, some verses that will help you. It's great to think that we would just offer up a prayer and instantly our anger would be taken away. Sometimes we need something that more, though, that motivates us. God is not surprised by our humanity. He is fully aware that we would give way to our anger. That is why He gives us tools that are always at our fingertips, if we are willing to seek them out. There are something like a kajillion verses on anger and anxiety in the Bible, all of which, will tear right though any kind of justification you can muster up with for being the way you are. :) Check out some of these verses, for starters:
- Psalm 37:8, "Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret-it leads only to evil."
- Proverbs 12:16, "A fool shows his annoyance at once, but a prudent man overlooks an insult."
- Proverbs 12:18, "Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing."
- Proverbs 14:17, "A quick-tempered man does foolish things, and a crafty man is hated."
- Proverbs 15:1, "A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger."
- Proverbs 29:22, "An angry man stirs up dissension, and a hot-tempered one commits many sins."
- Colossians 3:8, "But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips."
- Ephesians 4:26-27, "In your anger do not sin. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold."
- Ephesians 4:29-32, "Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you."
This is only a start. There are sooooooooo many other verses on this topic! Google it. Swagbuck it. :) Whatever. You'll see that God speaks directly to this issue over and over and over again.
This tells me two things: 1. You're not alone. MANY people deal with this issue of anger.
2. It matters to God. Your thought life matters to God. The God who has all resources available to you says that this topic matters to Him, and offers His resources to you. Tap into that. Pray.
How are you doing lately? Are you giving the devil a foothold by sinning in your anger? Are you grieving the Holy Spirit by putting your little ones down on a consist basis? With your words, are you building up, or tearing down, the house that God has entrusted to you?
I sit here convicted. I have done foolish things, I have given the devil a foothold by acting out of my anger, and I have grieved the Holy Spirit by belittling my children when I was angry. Forgive me, Lord, for the times I have kept my anxious thoughts unchecked and allowed them to lead me to anger. May your sweet grace cover the times I have spoken out of impatience and a quick-temper towards my family. Your mercies are new every morning, Lord. I want this day to honor you. I will stop myself when I begin to rise in anger today, and I will speak one of these verses over my situation. I will pray that verse right out loud, and give that situation over to you. I will devote this day to developing a new vocabulary of gentle answers that are pleasant and healing, rather than reckless and reactive.
Amen.
Love you mommas! If you are reading this, you have been prayed for today.